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25 November, 2004

Hypocrisy Kills..So Kill Hypocrisy..

I'm sick of it all. Too tired of life. Too tired of bein' sum-one I'm not. I noe who I really am. But why, man? Why can't I juz be like tha rest of my male fwenz? Man, they can really talk wit' gurls. I've tried my best..but why do I alwaes had dis 'seram sejuk' feeling wit' gurls?! Or maybe was it becuz of dat Spaghetti Incident in 1999? Fuck. There's juz too much shit goin' on in my brain. Can't think no more. U juz sit back and read diz lyrics I got from The Ataris. Maybe u noe sumthin' bout life. Holler.

The Hero Dies in This One - The Ataris

As I leave here today, apartment 108
I'll always keep you in my heart.
Anderson is cold tonight,
The leaves are scattered on the ground.
I miss the seasons,
And the comfort of your smile.

Sometimes this all feels like a dream.
I'm waiting for someone to just wake me up,
From this life.

As I look out at these fairgrounds,
I remember how our family split apart.
I don't think I ever told you,
But I know you always did your best.
And the hard times,
They only made us stronger.

As I sit here all alone,
I wonder how I'm suppose to carry on when you're gone.
I'll never be the same without you,
I love you more then you will ever know.
So maybe now you finally know.
Sometimes we're helpless and alone,
But you can let it keep you weighted down.
You must go on.

Do you ever feel like crying?
Do you ever feel like giving up?
I raise my hands up towards the sky,
I say this prayer for you tonight,
Because nothing is impossible.

As I sit here all alone,
I wonder how I'm suppose to carry on when you're gone.
I'll never be the same without you,
I love you more then you will ever know.
So maybe now you finally know.
Sometimes we're helpless and alone,
But you can let it keep you weighted down.
You must go on.

The hardest part isn't finding what we need to be,
It's being content with who we are.

Stay who you are.
You must go on.

reminisced;
- 3:09 PM