so long Astoria
i found tha map to buried treasure
even if we come home empty handed
we' ll still have our stories
of battle scars, pirate ships and wounded hearts,
broken bones, and all the best of friendships
and when this hourglass
has filtered out its final grain of sand
i raise my glass to the memories we had..
this is my wish
i'm taking back
i'm taking them all back...


Man, I've never even thought dat it would go dis way. It's hard. Astoria left. It's not dat she's gone away forever, but she's juz ain't tha same no more, man. Her last string snapped. I noe it's crazy. A lot of people was like, "Dude, get over it, it's juz a guitar..". But, it ain't. By tha way, it's a her by tha way people and she's got a name - Astoria. I can't believe it, man. I actually shed them tears in tha gents room. Toilet. Aightz. Here's wad happened. Better Left Unsaid was doing our thing in tha canteen. Playing our shitz. It went ok. Smooth. Haiz. Then, it occured. I was playing 'Dammit' with Andiq. And suddenly it went 'snap'. My heart stopped for tha moment. I didn't noe how. It juz stopped. Eyes all down at her. Mouth went speechless. I juz didn't noe wad to do. Like..only a minute later then I could react. Still speechless. Went to tha toilet. Wanna be alone. Privacy. It's wierd, but I cried. I was praying hard dat dis day won't come. But it did. Shitz. Then Naqib came in. I was embarrassed. Wiped all my tears. Smiled at him. Acted like nuthing had happened, exposing my red eyes. Man, I never cried in front of anyone before. I'm strong. But dat shit was juz too much. Haiz. Told u. Shitz they come one after another. Ok, straight after dat, went to tha canteen. Packed. Didn't say much word. Went off. Still having my heart on my throat then.


Aziz and Syamil was a huge help. They followed me to Symphony Music School. Went to fix tha damage. Yar. I noe, it sure gonna be a happy ending. Yar rite. And so it seemed. Managed to pull tha strings together again. I was like dude, Astoria's alive!! Well, I thought wrong. Shit happened again after dat. On tha way home crossing tha road, I heard a snap. A loud one. Heart stopped again. Quickly ran up home. Checked everything out. Nuthing's alrite. Immediately played some riffs. Shitz. Wad I thought was true. She's not tha same anymore. She now makes wierd wierd sounds. Man! Why is dis happening?! Wad did I do wrong in life to deserve dis?! Phuck everything. Phuck my headaches, phuck my fweakin' problems, phuck me! Haiz. I'm sorry. Couldn't accept tha fate. Lost another special one today. 17 May 2005, when everything began to change...