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11 February, 2007

The Chimaera

Well, i've done my self reflection, alrite. Only this time i took a few more hours longer to do so. I just... couldn't decide what i have to do. "Should i tell her?" That question always appears in my head every night i try to sleep. I mean, it's been almost 10 months now since i start taking notice of her. And like they say, "Its getting stranger by the day.." The more i stay away, the more nearer i get. And when i began to move closer, the more further i got. Sometimes i just don't know what to think. Frankly, i'm not even afraid to do so. You know, trying to move one step further and getting to know her even more. But i simply couldn't figure out what the problem is. Just what IS the problem? Could it be her? Or is it just.. me?

Well, last Friday could be the very day i told her everything, from A-Z. Really. I even planned out my so-called speech the night before! Heh. But first, I kind of consulted Aziz for his advice. He told me to just follow what my heart says. And my heart actually said, "Go tell her!" Damn i was nervous..

But it turned out something else. Totally unplanned. The moment i got my result slip, there's only one thing in my mind: tell my mum and dad. I was too overexcited about my results that i had completely forgotten about what i planned to do! I actually blew my one chance! And that lyric of that song i made, meant for her birthday gift, it was... Man.. Her birthday is coming on the 14th this month..

And i blew my one and only chance.

Well, the time will come one day.. My mark words.

reminisced;
- 7:52 PM