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01 March, 2007

The Escapist Now Returned

Hey! What was i thinking last Wednesday?! Man, there's never a need to be pessimistic. I just need to pull myself up. Yearh! That's the right way! Not turn into some emo piece of nuthin'! Alrite, everything happens and will happen for a reason. In that i must trust. Even though i'll fail again, that doesn't mean i should keep on failing, right? I'll always keep that up inside this almost-hollow head of mine. Bless in disguise, bless in disguise, bless in disguise...

I might not get into the course that i desire. Hehx. That's most likely to happen. I mean, the chance is 50-50, right? And if that happens (hopefully not..), it doesn't mean my life will end there, right? Right! That is why we're allowed to put up to 12 choices, right? Right!! Well, i've chosen mine, so there should be no problemo for me. Hmm. All i've got to do is to stay positive.. Hmm...

And yea. What was i thinking back then?! I shouldn't expect anything from anybody. I shouldn't have any high hopes. (well, ambitions doesn't count..) Think about my first intention and the promise i once made. I did told her once that i wanted to be her friend; just a friend. And that is what i should be for now. No more, no less. Maybe i was too selfish to ever think about what she might be thinking or feeling. Hmm. I was wrong. I'm sorry. So i shouldn't be thinking about anything more than a friend right now. All i want to do is to make her feel happy, as a friend. And i'll [makedamnsure] that she'll do well in her O's. And that's a friend's promise. And this friend keeps his promises..

reminisced;
- 8:45 PM